The first tim I killed an elk, I was freaked out by the parade of ticks that started crawling off its body as it started to cool. Dozens of them started looking for another warm body to hitch a ride on, and I was the closest one available. These things were huge and gorged with blood, so when I smashed them, it made a nasty mess.
I forgot about ticks. Not really a phobia, but they do give me the willies.
The Seahawks, Sonics and Storm obsessed checker at my local Safeway. Dude is pretty far on the spectrum. @BennyBeaver knows
Can confirm.
Yesterday, his rant was especially off the rails and I thought he might lose it and hit a customer with a wine bottle or some other blunt object. Topic: Dude does not like men that disrespeck women's sports and the Seattle Storm. I was like, "Bruh, I have intimate knowledge of chick's hoops and much respeck!!" I was able to keep his attention for all of about 5 secs before the spectrum took over again and the mumbling rant continued.
So, I'm not a complete sociopath and have a rational mind that tells me things are bad ideas buuuut
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
So, I'm not a complete sociopath and have a rational mind that tells me things are bad ideas buuuut
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
So, I'm not a complete sociopath and have a rational mind that tells me things are bad ideas buuuut
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
You forgot sleepy tim edibles.
You've gotta be the definition of SS to think that consuming edibles is high risk behavior.
So, I'm not a complete sociopath and have a rational mind that tells me things are bad ideas buuuut
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
You forgot sleepy tim edibles.
You've gotta be the definition of SS to think that consuming edibles is high risk behavior.
Before the Rose Bowl I think they are high risk. Camping or something like that they are good.
The Seahawks, Sonics and Storm obsessed checker at my local Safeway. Dude is pretty far on the spectrum. @BennyBeaver knows
Can confirm.
Yesterday, his rant was especially off the rails and I thought he might lose it and hit a customer with a wine bottle or some other blunt object. Topic: Dude does not like men that disrespeck women's sports and the Seattle Storm. I was like, "Bruh, I have intimate knowledge of chick's hoops and much respeck!!" I was able to keep his attention for all of about 5 secs before the spectrum took over again and the mumbling rant continued.
I don't work at Safeway but as a guy who has intimate knowledge of the industry I can confirm it is well documented that a large percentage of Safeway employees are very much on the spectrum. I think they have a Rorschach test as an application. They weird folk.
So, I'm not a complete sociopath and have a rational mind that tells me things are bad ideas buuuut
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
I was watching that documentary Free Solo several months ago - legit AF if you haven't seen it and are into rock climbing, human endurance, or just plain crazy ass shit - and in one part they stuck the dude in an MRI chamber and tested his brains reaction to fear stressors. Doctor at the end is explaining the results and she basically says "you exhibit no response to the stimuli unlike 99.9% of the population." Which seems very obvious when the dude then attempts to climb up a 3200 foot sheer granite wall with no fucking rope. Jesus. Anyway, the point here is some people do not have a normally functioning "fear" center in the brain, and it allows these people to do some amazing and crazy shit.
I can tell you this. I have landed on aircraft carriers, in storms, at night. If you have never done something like that, let me fucking tell you, it is asshole clenching white knuckle scary. I also used to do a bunch of semi hardcore rock climbing in my early to mid 20's, and have ridden motorcycles fast for years (including dirt bike racing in my teens). Plus all the crazy off road shit I do in Jeeps that I am surprised hasn't killed me. So, much like you I have done some serious adrenaline sports. The difference might be I actually feel the fear. My fear center of the brain is fucking pumping overtime. So, I had to learn to control it, and calm it. I wish, like the dude in Free Solo, it just wasn't there. But I am probably still alive because it is. That and luck.
So, I'm not a complete sociopath and have a rational mind that tells me things are bad ideas buuuut
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
I was watching that documentary Free Solo several months ago - legit AF if you haven't seen it and are into rock climbing, human endurance, or just plain crazy ass shit - and in one part they stuck the dude in an MRI chamber and tested his brains reaction to fear stressors. Doctor at the end is explaining the results and she basically says "you exhibit no response to the stimuli unlike 99.9% of the population." Which seems very obvious when the dude then attempts to climb up a 3200 foot sheer granite wall with no fucking rope. Jesus. Anyway, the point here is some people do not have a normally functioning "fear" center in the brain, and it allows these people to do some amazing and crazy shit.
I can tell you this. I have landed on aircraft carriers, in storms, at night. If you have never done something like that, let me fucking tell you, it is asshole clenching white knuckle scary. I also used to do a bunch of semi hardcore rock climbing in my early to mid 20's, and have ridden motorcycles fast for years (including dirt bike racing in my teens). Plus all the crazy off road shit I do in Jeeps that I am surprised hasn't killed me. So, much like you I have done some serious adrenaline sports. The difference might be I actually feel the fear. My fear center of the brain is fucking pumping overtime. So, I had to learn to control it, and calm it. I wish, like the dude in Free Solo, it just wasn't there. But I am probably still alive because it is. That and luck.
I’m a total Yella belly. It’s a wonder I even poast here.
Ticks. I know a couple people who got Lime Disease from ticks and a few more who are now fucking allergic to mammal meat thanks to tick bites. Anytime I'm out in the woods I get paranoid as fuck now and check my body way too many times. If my kids are with me I'm even worse paranoid for them. Found one latched on to my three year olds skull after a hike and about lost my mind.
Fuck them all.
This.
My dude went for a ride up the mountains. Tick got him on the leg when he stopped to take a leak in the woods.
Got Lyme Disease and went from being a scary as fuck biker who would crack skulls just for looking at him wrong to being laid up in the house barely able to function each day.
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I forgot about ticks. Not really a phobia, but they do give me the willies.
I have an autistic disconnect from my feelings that gives me a real fearlessness.
Cliff jumping in Mejico, Big wave surfing in Hawaii, Cutting lanes on a motorcycle at a 100mph+, Venomous snake training in Africa, White water rescue, etc. I've got a long list of high risk activities that I've said, "Fuck it, looks fun". @Dennis_DeYoung can tell me if that qualifies as fast strategy.
The most extreme example of this I can think of was my first run of Boulder Drop on the Sky at 10,000+ CFS. I was sitting at the top of the rapid on some rocks scouting my lines, completely calm and collected, thinking through my turns, moves, and angles. Low and behold, my wetsuit starts getting warm from me pissing and I think to myself, "Huh, I must be scared right now." but otherwise I wouldn't have been able to tell you that I felt any different from any other run.
I've also come close enough to drowning to make peace with dying more than a handful of times. You'd think that would give me some fear of the water but if anything, it made me less so.
TLDR feelings to robots are only superficial application software.
I can tell you this. I have landed on aircraft carriers, in storms, at night. If you have never done something like that, let me fucking tell you, it is asshole clenching white knuckle scary. I also used to do a bunch of semi hardcore rock climbing in my early to mid 20's, and have ridden motorcycles fast for years (including dirt bike racing in my teens). Plus all the crazy off road shit I do in Jeeps that I am surprised hasn't killed me. So, much like you I have done some serious adrenaline sports. The difference might be I actually feel the fear. My fear center of the brain is fucking pumping overtime. So, I had to learn to control it, and calm it. I wish, like the dude in Free Solo, it just wasn't there. But I am probably still alive because it is. That and luck.
https://www.cbsnews.com/news/tickborne-diseases-are-one-the-rise-heres-what-you-need-to-know/
My dude went for a ride up the mountains. Tick got him on the leg when he stopped to take a leak in the woods.
Got Lyme Disease and went from being a scary as fuck biker who would crack skulls just for looking at him wrong to being laid up in the house barely able to function each day.
OH MY GOD KILL THEM WITH FIRE