Tyler Hilinski, dead.

minion_doog said:

If you feel suicide is a selfish act, I'd like you to consider the people you saw jumping to their deaths from the WTC. A suicidal mind is no different than the state of mind those people were in. The hell and misery is inescapable. They don't want to die, they are desperate for relief. In some cases of suicide, their mind has lied to them for so long and so hard that they believe they're doing you a favor by no longer existing.

Until visiting your therapist is as revered as checking into the gym, then mental health will continue to be the root of many societal issues. It's too much to ask that people seek guidance at the peak of their irrational thinking. Mental health needs be treated like your jump shot; Practice.

Full disclosure; Ruptured a disk, surgery, opiates. I realized I was abusing the hydrocodone, read online for a week what detox was going to be like, prepared myself for a battle, and stopped. I could never wrap my head around suicide being the conclusion for anyone but the most destitute. Now I understand.

Listen up, if this has caught the attention of any of you fucks reading, and you want to talk about some shit, PM me. Do it.

For the sake of levity; The nurse I saw a bunch in the weeks leading up to surgery was super smokin hot, similar age, and politely receptive to my attempts at humor. The day of, I took a black sharpie and wrote her name on my ass cheek and drew a heart around it. Later, she would politely and abruptly turn me down when I asked her out.