I'm 31, so I barely remember '91, was in high school the last time UW went to a bowl game that was worth a shit, and have spent virtually all of my adult life watching the team I love lose to the team I hate the most(along with all other semi-decent teams). I'm at the point where I hate watching the games. I get so fucking mad that I lose all control and start spewing phrases that could make PL_SS blush. Old people around me in the stadium turn and look with horror, stunned that the human mind can construct such vile sentences. My friends and family get on my case about it saying I shouldn't get so mad over a game.
The shit I've had to watch the last 14 years has made me so pessimistic it's pathetic. When I watch the Huskies play, my first instinct is to assume that every flag is on them, every review is going against them, and that every time they make a good play, they're going to fuck it up and give it back. I didn't see Gaskin score tonight because I was looking for flags, and I do that on pretty much every big play without even consciously doing it.
When the score was 23-6 tonight, part of me was actually hoping Oregon would break out the plunger and finish them off just so I wouldn't get my hopes up. It's straight battered spouse shit. I keep hoping things will change, that at some point whatever loser coach we have will turn the corner and pretend to earn his multimillion dollar salary, but every time it ends with a swift kick to the dick followed by the realization that as long as a bunch of liberals who don't give a fuck about football run UW, the football team is never going to be good again.
There's no accountability, and it goes all the way up the chain. The president and BOR don't hold the athletic director to a standard of excellence, so there's no pressure on him to hold the coach to one, the coach doesn't hold his assistants accountable, mediocrity becomes acceptable, and all of a sudden your program becomes a breeding ground for losers. Sure, a coach may leave or get fired occasionally, but the culture remains, fueled by the fact that the people in charge don't seem to care.
I better cut this off before it gets any closer to Tequilla long, but I fear I've gotten to that point already. I'm just so fucking tired of this shit. It sucks watching something I care about continually fall short of what I know it can be. I miss Washington, dammit.